Annette steadied herself before
entering the hospital room. The last
time they had seen each other, over forty years ago, had been unpleasant for
both. Preston had called off their
engagement and she was returning the ring and other things she had collected
during their courtship. Standing face to
face, he unleashed his anger with a vengeance and Annette had never understood
the reason. He had never talked to her
like that before, even when he told he didn’t want to marry. The scene was surreal and confusing. She had loved him with her entire heart. That love combined with her low self-esteem
failed to give her the courage to defend herself. So she had stood there and silently accepted
his avalanche of insults and painful verbal jabs. She was angry with herself for being such a
coward, but unable to muster the courage to speak. It was years before she understood that what
he demonstrated was actually pain, not anger.
He wasn’t as ready to end the relationship as he professed. The day she learned the reason for his tirade,
her broken heart finally healed.
They had gone their separate
ways. Each had married, raised a family,
and enjoyed successful careers. Both
were happy in their new lives, but each had a special place in their heart for the
love they left so many years ago. It had
been the right love between the right people at the wrong time. Another time and another place might have
produced a different outcome.
Yesterday Annette saw the post on
a social network that he was hospitalized with very little time left on this
earth. She couldn’t let him leave this world with
their parting words expressed as anger and hostility. So early this morning, she had dressed in her
most becoming outfit and boarded the plane.
Now she stood outside his hospital room gathering her courage. Unsure of his reaction, she had intentionally
waited until his family left. The two of
them had some emotional business to finish.
She wanted to say goodbye without worrying about the feelings of others.Slowly she opened the door and walked quietly into the room. There on the hospital bed laid a gray-haired man with wrinkled skin. His eyes were closed and his breathing labored. She walked softly to the bedside. He opened his eyes and without a word reached his right hand toward her as tears slipped down his cheeks. Annette smiled through her own tears.
“Annabelle.” He said softly. He had hated any public display of affection
and the cute names couples called each other.
So he had given her the nickname and said, “When you hear me say that,
you’ll know that it’s my special name for you.”
She had cherished the name and at this moment it spoke volumes to her
heart.
“I can’t believe you came after
the way I treated you. I’m sorry I hurt
you.” He voice was little more than a
whisper.
“Don’t talk. I don’t want you to get tired. Let me talk for both of us.” Annette told him as she stroked his hand. “I
had to come. I had to see you one more
time.”
“Thank you. I’ve missed you.”“I’ve missed you too. You were my best friend. Anytime I faced a problem in my life, I’d think, If only I could talk to Preston. He’d understand. No one understood me like you. You understood my hopes and dreams as well as my problems.”
“And you understood mine.” Preston said, smiling weakly.
“We understood each other. I have been blessed with some good friends in
my life, but none like you.”
“I can’t believe you would say
that after the things I said to you. You
should hate me.”
“I know and I’ve tried, but I
can’t. It’s like I used to tell my
children ‘I don’t love because of what
you say or do. I love you because you
are you. As long as you are you, I’m
going to love you.’ When you love
someone, you don’t stop because they hurt you.”
“Can you forgive me?”
“I forgave you as soon as I
learned that you were hurting as badly as I was. I should have realized it that day. I could have said something to ease your pain.”
“No you couldn’t. Even though I had broken our relationship, I
wasn’t ready for you to move on. The
male ego in me wanted you to still want me. When you returned all my personal belongings, reality
hit me hard. I knew God was leading us
down separate paths, but I still loved you and wanted you to love me.”
“I did still love you. I loved you that night and the forty years
since that night. I’ll always love you.”
“How does your husband feel about
that?”
“He knows that the love I have
for you doesn’t diminish the love I have for him. It is possible to love more than one person
at a time. He not only accepts that, he
taught me.”
“My wife is not so understanding. I don’t think she’ll be happy when she learns
you were here. She has always believed
that I secretly wished I’d married you.”
“Oh that’s alright. I’ve always believed the same thing.” They both laughed at the joke.
“I’m so glad you came. It’s so good to see you.”
“It’s good to laugh
together. I’ve missed that. The last time we saw each other was the only
time we didn’t laugh together. I think
that’s what hurt the most. I can still
see you snatching my engagement ring out of my hand like it was a wad of paper
to throw in the trash can. I wanted to
take it back. It was so precious to me
and meant nothing to you.”
“That’s not true. I drove to the park to be alone. I sat looking at that ring and remembering
what it represented. I cried for you,
myself, and what we had lost. I just
couldn’t show you how badly I was hurting.”
“I wish I’d known. I truly thought that the best time of my life
had been the worst time in yours.”
“I’m sorry you believed that. I couldn’t show you how I really felt because
I was afraid I’d disobey God and continue our relationship. He had clearly told me what His will was and
I truly wanted his blessings. So I
followed His leading and broke both my heart and yours. But He has blessed both of us because we have
followed his guidance. Now we’ve had a
chance to say goodbye the right way. I
won’t see you again on this side of heaven, but we’ll walk the streets of gold
and talk as friends like we did when we were dating.”
“I’m staying at the hotel down
the street. I’ll stop by in the morning before
I go to the airport.”
Preston’s eyes were closed and he
didn’t answer. Annette didn’t wait for
him to open them. She slipped out the
door with a much lighter heart than she entered.
Annette had always made it a
point to stay at finer hotels when traveling alone. She was not disappointed with the one she chose
this trip. The room was decorated in a
modified Victorian style with Queen Anne chairs and plush drapery. When she got in the bed, she felt the mattress
wrap around her like a comforting hug.
She drifted off to sleep and was surprised when the alarm woke her.
She dressed quickly so she would
have time to stop by the hospital on her way to the airport. Breakfast might wait, but the plane wouldn’t.
This time as Annette walked down
the hospital corridors, her heart was light and her steps were quick. Yesterday she had shyly stood outside the
door. Today she boldly walked into
Preston’s room to tell him goodbye one more time. Entering the room, her steps and her heart
stopped. The bed was empty. It had been covered with fresh linen in
anticipation for a new occupant. Annette
remembered Preston’s words about not seeing her again. He had known he was going home.
Lord, thank you for letting me say goodbye. Please give Preston a good homecoming and let
him meet me at the gate when I come home.
Amen.
2 comments:
Oh my goodness, this excerpt is amazing. Sounds like a wonderful story!
Powerful. I think we have all had our "Preston moments" and that's why it rings so true. Excellent writing. Nothing sappy here. Thanks for sharing.
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